My puzzle of bisexual

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I am 25 years of age, female, learn the plane design, not received psychological setbacks, comfortable, only child, the parents love, family condition is good, so I don't have any reason for mental illness, but I didn't know you like men or women.
That should speak of from junior middle school, then students, often talked about the first love, those things will pay attention and wanted to think, however, until graduation I don't have a is the first love of people, I'm not late, and even earlier than their peers to know this, but, I am the boy's assessment is objective, in adolescence didn't like any one person, then, to remember my first love should be a female classmate, because at that time I very like the feel of hug together with her, very comfortable, very quiet, can always want more than staying with her.
That girl is a quiet kind of person, so from then on I should be the male role of lesbian, T, although I am a pony tail, is the standard girl.
Later in high school, my study is good, it can also be interpreted as I say, so-and-so like you, but never mind, senior 3, the next class monitor say to me, he is a good character, is also very handsome, but I didn't answer him.
Speaking of which, I at that time already know that I must love a girl, in the school have a girl I like, also once was my girlfriend), at the same time also like boys, because I have been very like Sherlock Holmes, like the calm, but crazy boy again, I have always considered it a boy didn't appear) so at that time I'm sure he is bisexual.
In college, I was completely mad, freshman year I made friends with our dormitory classmates brother, we're in a school, he went on to do like me, I promised him, until after more than half a year, I've heard a lot of boys hate gay, then I freely asked him, you hate gay?
He replied, disgusted.
I turned my face and never spoke to him again.
Later, have a hair cut, just cut very neutral, deserve to go up my height 178, I became a school girl called handsome boy, so I have made two girlfriends, the second is the hand in 12 years.
In 12 years in winter, I met, high school next to the monitor, he also know that I am like a girl, but he said don't care, we are all single, did the men and women friends, until a month ago, he and I break up, I asked why, he good half-day, yelling at me, you don't like men.
He this sentence suddenly awakened me, being a bisexual boyfriend, bisexual girlfriend, I found that the reason why I liked men and women completely, on the other hand, like a girl, because girl gentle, I enjoy to take care of her happiness, and I in the girl's eyes, I than most men again gentle and romantic.
And I like to like the man is to stand in the Angle of a complete want to be taken care of, can say mentality completely opposite.
And my former boyfriend that sentence, you don't like the man, really me jump, under a good recall that girl and I live together, but not to live with the boy, I at that time, because the boy thought gay disgusting, I have never spoken to him, because I didn't break up with boyfriend and sad time, just will be angry, and broke up with his girlfriend I almost out of the car accident, I've always thought, the boys are not put feelings because, I like what kind of boy didn't appear, however, think carefully, I suddenly found that people who like Sherlock Holmes will never appear in the reality.
Maybe it's not a coincidence that my feelings for men are just traditional thinking, and now I don't know what to do.
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