One hundred bisexuals may show us 101 appearances. It all because of the abstract, rich, and volatile of emotion show. So we can not decide a person's sexual orientation, and we should learn about how to respect others sexual orientation.
When i in senior high school, i was in the Platonic flirtation. That is a fine day. I was in a good relationship with a girl friend, and we always wrote exchange dairy. But later, she thought we should expand ourselves personnel space rather than get together all the time. I felt unspeakable melancholy and dismay. And she didn't think so. She said to me " you should be more independent". At that time, i felt painful and unbelievable, cause she was the trustest and closest person in my life.
At the same time, i had realized something different for my reaction. From then on, I started to suspect that I'm bisexual.
In fact, i don't remember how can i know this word, but i can understand" interest in both genders, man and women" means bisexual. What's more, i actually pay more attention to soul communication than gender. Even so, i still feel the struggle. The main reason is i don't want to be different from her, i don't want to be denied by her and the society. I'd rather i just a heterosexual, so that i can not lose my balance of friendship, and we can keep this relationship for a long time. In the second place, the reason of the struggle is sex. Because i have no sexual fantasy about her, just enjoy the touching and hug. So I'm just the Platonic flirtation or Pseudohomosexuality?
For me, that is the feeling of love and be loved. Whatever it will be named, i feel happy and peaceful, and that is the deepest impression in my mind.
In junior year, i had my first boyfriend, and first made love with boy. In fact, i didn't have any special intimacy or pleasure when I was having sex with him, but i'd rather tantalize him and slept at his arms. So, i'm sure i can love man. Above all, I'm sure the desire of" take body and soul close" is regardless gender. Cause at that time i had a same sex friend who i love better. But i stopped it quickly, because she has married. That is my second lose balance of friendship, lose myself and lose the trust of friendship.
To my surprise, i had the first sexual fantasy of woman later. And When i was 22 years old, I went to the turning point of my life: i dated with a man with i publicly came out as bisexuals at the dating site named" bisexuals playground". This is the best dating site in my opinion, i had found gay, lesbian and bisexuals on it. And the most important is i found my perfect match on it.
Love is love! Thanks.
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