Everyone wants to be understood by their partner, but the bisexuals often be conflicted by their partners because of their sexual orientation identity. For example, would you like to tell another companion you are bi, spoke may let the other side has a sense of insecurity, your partner may be worried about you for you can get married with the opposite sex at any time, and so on.
I am a gay man, but I seem to be easily attracted to gay, bisexual, or self-identified boys in marriage, which has puzzled me. She spent seven years in high school with her first boyfriend and then broke up because of career planning and personality differences, but remained friendly. Until two years after the break up, the first love boyfriend told me that he had an object in a close relationship, my interest is outraged asked him what kind of guy, he told me after the blare the word on the way and he went to the girl. For a moment, I had an inexplicable anger and my own imagination. "are you trying to hide your sexuality from your family and cheating on the girls?" "Or" are you going out with a guy after you've been dating me?" I have a feeling of being deceived, and I feel I don't know a boyfriend who has known him for more than seven years. Because of my life experience and gender knowledge, there was no bisexuality. I subconsciously think that only gays and lesbians are forced to hide their sexuality.
Graduate school, join clubs, gender began to have more vision, also just suddenly found my life in fact there are a lot of bisexual ever be kind to me, also it is difficult to realize the life experience with simple tags to classify. In college, I thought it was the color of A senior, always like to hold me to sleep, and love to call my wife. Or obviously have a girlfriend by couple seek girls, but always open my joke, like teasing my body Y classmate. I was so slow at the time that I wasn't aware of any other possibilities that seemed to be out of male bonding.
When first boyfriend and I share his communicative objects, I was also excitedly to discuss with him, and he mentioned that the other is a girl, my mood is converted to suspicion and anger, is cheating? Is in part because feel like his first love was rejected, the man finally "into a heterosexual", but interacts with the sweetness of first love boyfriend of seven years at the time, countless memories also is real? When I understand that bisexuality is real, I can only see my anger and worry. Deep down, I am afraid that my first love will be denied.
Somehow, after I let go, there were more bisexual boys in my life who came to me. (or maybe I opened the eyes of bisexuality to face them.) My first boyfriend's wedding invited me to go, when I happened to be busy with my thesis, so I declined. When he mentioned his fiancee when asked if he had had contact experience, he want to seven years of high school to university out and talk about the joys and sorrows but unable to speak, because he does not know how to explain their ever associate with boys. It was only when I got to this point that I realized the double closet of bisexual people, that I understood the unspeakable secret not only in the threesome dating site, but in the real emotion that could not be seen.
After opening the eyes of bisexuality, I once thought that if I met the people I liked again, would I feel the impact again? Are there any other girls besides boys? If the object is male, I can compete, but if the other person is a girl, we are different, we can't compete. These repeated arguments for emotion come from a lack of confidence and a lack of security for bisexuals. When I identify with bisexuality, I don't care. The business of emotion is to seize every moment and enjoy the sweetness and quarrel of two people, not the other person is gay, bisexual and straight.
The label should not be limited, sexual orientation is not the excuse to block love, as long as two people are sincere interaction.
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